Anyway, I'm here to talk about evenings. My evenings start around 7:00 after Z-cakes has gone to bed. That is the time when I begin pacing around the house wondering what to do. I literally pace. Back and forth. Mostly in the basement because that is my "craft space" of sorts; "mom cave" as Carl so lovingly dubbed it. Anyway...there I am pacing. Back and forth. Trying to decide what to do. Shall I clean up? Because seriously, this place is a mess. Shall I write a blog? Because seriously, I haven't posted in like a month. Shall I sew something? Because seriously, that pile of "to be sewn" is getting out of control. Nah. That's not what I feel like doing right now.
I find that Sunday nights are the absolute worst. In my head I'm making grand plans for what I'm going to do on the upcoming week (train for that 10K, bake 4 cakes, scrapbook Z-cake's entire first year, write a novel) but never feel right about starting any of them on an evening when I won't be able to devote much time to them (plus I'm too scared to run in the dark). I start getting cranky if that Sunday evening lag carries over into Monday. "Is this just how I am?" I think to myself..."What if my super power is...inertia?" No. That can't be. I have to do something.
So here I am typing this blog that I don't really feel like typing, on a subject I don't feel like talking about. Does this ever happen to you? Do you ever kill your to-do list during the day only to find out that you are too out of steam to do anything fun in your free time? What do you do to light your fire? Maybe you're smarter than me and have decided that you don't need to do anything and have curled up in front of your telly for a little Watch It Now. I do hope so.
As for me...I'm off to do something.
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I think we had the exact same night. Then I discovered the source of our fruit fly problem, and that took up the rest of my night. I think I'd rather have the inertia.
I'm going to go vomit now.
I totally get the feeling of not knowing what to do when you finally have some time to yourself. There are so many many things you want to do that it just gets rather overwhelming. Never enough time.
I am usually so tired at the end of the day that all I can do is make sure the kitchen is clean, pick up a little, then sit down in front of the tv with some knitting. That or read!
Ty keeps telling me to focus my creativness so that I do a few things really well not 20 million random projects that I all want to be perfect. Alas, what to do away with though? However, I LOVE Sunday night--it is my ME time. No cleaning or anything else responsible--just 100% crafting and I have been much better about only starting a few projects at a time, so I usually know exactly what I want to do (which isn't always what I SHOULD do, but whatever).
Also, I'm pregnant. :)
Hello love! It's so delightful to finally read your blog...since I have also not been posting anything and pretty much avoiding the computer all summer. But since I'm back to work next week, I'll comment much more frequently on how much I adore reading your blog....even about things that you hate writing about. :) Hope you are well. BTW, we are headed your way in less than a month; if at all possible, I'd love to see you. I'll be in touch.
Does this ever happen to me? Yes. Sure I don't have kids or a husband, but inertia does impede me sometimes. Ha and I usually succumb to it and watch TV on DVD.
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