A couple of weeks ago at church I had a feeling. Let's go ahead and call it a prompting.
N8tr0n had just applied for a job that he felt he was highly qualified for and we were hoping that he would get called for an interview. I was sitting in the chapel trying to think of what more I could do to help N8tr0n get a job. We've prayed, good heavens have we prayed. We've asked our family to pray. We've been optimistic, hopeful, cautious, and disappointed. As I sat feeling sorry for my helpless self the thought came to me, "you need to ask for more help." That's it. For a brief moment I thought of my blog and how I've kept our employment situation somewhat private, trying to not go too overboard with the "poor us, we have no money" stories. I decided that was exactly the way I liked it and pushed the thought out of my head. On Friday N8tr0n told me that he had just gotten an interview for the job and again, I had that feeling...
"You need to ask for more help."
So here I am. Going public.
A little back story: After I had Z-cakes I went back to work after 12 weeks of maternity leave. N8tr0n was finishing up graduate school planning to graduate and hopefully have a job by January (this was June-ish). After a couple of devastating months being away from my baby, we decided that if we lived frugally, I could quit my job and we could live off of our savings and N8tr0n's research income until he got a job. Our savings lasted us many more months than we thought it would and in October when a particularly promising job prospect fell through, N8tr0n was able to start a temporary job and though the pay wasn't great, it was a huge blessing. Some months we break even but more often than not, we come up short. Now, our savings is all but gone and we lean heavily on our parents for support. A combination of factors including unlucky timing (hello recession) has left us unable to find a decent job and very often in low spirits.
When I sit and think about it, like, when I really try to look on the bright side, I see how much our family has been blessed during this time. We've learned to accept the kind service of our friends and family. Not one of us has been ill enough to need a doctor's appointment in A YEAR AND A HALF (knocking on wood). We've learned to live within our means and how to "make it work." We have learned to pick ourselves up from disappointment and most importantly, we have learned what matters most.
N8tr0n has an interview on Tuesday, and we are asking for your help. If you could keep us in your thoughts. Pray for us. Meditate for us. Send positive energy out into the universe for us, whatever it is that you choose to do. Could you do it for us? We would so appreciate it. And we promise to return the favor whenever the occasion arises.
Much love and many thanks, for everything.