N8tr0n's job snuck up on me. I honestly didn't see it coming. Which is odd if you think about the fact that for a year and a half I've thought of little more than N8tr0n landing a job.
N8tr0n hung up his cell phone. "They offered me the job," he said.
"You're kidding!" I said, followed by stunned silence.
Have you ever waited to long for something to happen, and you've imagined your reaction over and over? Even though you know that when it actually happens your reaction will be nothing like your dreams? When N8tr0n uttered the words "they offered me a job," I wanted to jump up and down screaming, clapping, and smothering him with hugs. But instead, my eyes welled up with tears, I lost my breath, and I let that tingly wave wash over my body. The one that you get when something either really great or really bad has happened. I don't know about you but it's the same sensation for me; it just has a different emotion behind it. As my heart started to pound and I caught my breath I said,
"But I don't want to leave."
N8tr0n's job will take us to eastern Idaho. (If you simply must know the exact location please email me.) I love Idaho. I am over the moon for Idaho. You all know this. But whenever I think about leaving colorful Colorado, my heart feels like it is getting squeezed and my eyes start to sting. I never imagined that N8tr0n actually getting a job would be such a bittersweet experience for me. We've felt so trapped for so long that I thought only of the liberation that gainful employment would bring our family.
N8tr0n took a moment to remind me a few days ago (during one of my full-on crying sodes) that my word for this year is embrace. Once again, I am reminded that it was not on accident that I chose this word. It is time to embrace something new in my life. Something we've been waiting for for much too long. I think of this whenever I think of missing my two best friends' babies being born next month, or when I think of my cooking club. I think of it while we eat ice cream at Sweet Action, or I wander the aisles of Sunflower. It is time to embrace something new in my life. And though I may always miss things about Denver, there are new friends to be made and new corners to explore. Dear Idaho, here we come.
I absolutely must say THANK YOU for all of your wonderful support. We have felt your prayers and thoughts and your love has blessed our family. We can't wait to return the favor. Dear Blogland, you are the best and I love you.
P.S. We're moving in less than TWO WEEKS. Ouch. I'll try to post a bit on here between now and then but I'm not making any promises. I can promise that I'll be packing.